Frustration

Well, this has been a really rough week. I lost 2.4 pounds Monday night and since then I have been at basically the same weight ~ up a little, down a little :-( It is so, so, so frustrating. I know that it will all work out in the end and I am right where I was at this point last round. But, I am at 59 pounds gone and REALLY want to hit the 60 pound mark!

OK, whine over . . .

Progress

I have a thing with pictures . . . I hate them! However, Haley and I are quite goofy when it comes to taking "self-portraits". We usually take about 537,000, give or take a few, before we are happy with them. So, that is why I have so many. Here are four pictures that show some of my progress. I know I need to have some other pictures and I do have some "before" shots, but they will not see the light of day until I have some a.m.a.z.i.n.g "after" pics to post with them.

June 2010 ~ About a week and a half before I started the HcG Protocol

September 2010 - Finished with the first round and ready to start the second round.


October 2010 - Halfway through the second round

Non-Scale Victories

Back when I was doing Weight Watchers they would talk about Non-Scale Victories (NSV), which were things you found along the journey that were not directly related to the number on the scale. So, this morning (in church) I was thinking about this, as I was able to cross my leg over and my foot pointed down, not just across at my knee.
So, here are a few of the NSV I've accomplished:

• I am able to cross my leg at the knee and not have my foot sit on my knee
• I have not hit a drive-through since June 19
• I have gotten over my need to consume massive quantities of food. You know, if a little tastes good, a lot will taste even better.
• I can eat just what satisfies me . . . I was the one who believed that M&M's come in a bag for a reason ~ what person in their right mind wouldn't eat the whole package?!?!? I had 4 bites of a Frosty last month and was totally happy.
• I am in the smallest size that Lane Bryant carries! I am getting down to bare bones in what still fits in my closet. I had a gift card to spend at LB and went in yesterday. I can't wear their tops anymore and this was the LAST time I will be able to shop at that store. Look out bargain clothes, here I come! :-)
• I can sit with others who are eating and be fine.
• My knees and hips have not bothered me in weeks. Now, the ball of my foot is in pain but that is because I refuse to stop wearing heels for any length of time.
• I have a hip bone!! And a collar bone!!! :-)
• I no longer have heartburn or discomfort when I go to bed at night.
• I know that I will succeed in seeing this journey to the end!!! After so many starts and stops with little to no success and many, many times of regaining all I've lost, this is it ~~I will succeed!!!

50 Pounds!!!

I hit the 50 pound mark on Wednesday morning ~ halfway to a hundred and I can see the end in sight. I think I've mentioned before, but I really like being back on the HCG protocol. I do not think of food at all since I get so little variety and I've found that this really works for me.
My OCD brain has "planned" out the rest of this journey. . . according to my plan, as of March 7th I will be completely done with my last round and maintenance and will begin to live the rest of my life. Now, we'll just hope that my body cooperates.
In other news ~ because there is a little more to my life than losing weight:

• My Grams had surgery on her back about 2 weeks ago. It went really well and much of her pain is gone, thank goodness. It had gotten really bad for her lately and this was a pretty non-invasive (all things considered) procedure where they put cement in her cracked vertebrae.
• October 1 was the 2nd Anniversary of my Gramps' passing . . . still a little hard, but definitely easier than last year. It's hard to believe that he has already been gone for 2 years ~ I still have such vivid memories of the last few days with him.
• I am down to only 23 students now. When I took time off for my Grams' surgery, 2 girls withdrew on my first day gone. I was tempted to take the whole week off and see if 10 would move away! :-)

I guess that's all for now . . . not really much excitement, but just wait ~ I am sure I will be bursting with big news one of these days! :-)

My Body is a "One - derland" :-)

Go ahead, sing the John Mayer song along with me . . . I hit this amazing milestone this morning. Since I've decided to be honest on my blog (oh, as of , what, Saturday?) I have officially entered the world of the 100's!!! Yes, to many people that is still ginormous, but I have not been here since September 2001 so, to me, it is a great accomplishment. I know I have a LOT more to go but this feels wonderful. Now, if I could just get someone to appreciate my "skin like porcelain" (I really love that song!)
Ready to go knock some more pounds off and get that song out of my head!!

40 Pounds Gone Forever!!!!

I hit the 40 pound mark on Thursday!! Getting even closer to another massage :-)
This weekend I had to "binge" to get my fat cells "primed" for releasing calories ~ at least according the the Pounds and Inches writings. Anyhow, it was hard. I had to think really hard of what I could eat that had lots of fat and calories. Nothing sounded good. So I ended up with sonic chicken and tots (since I had a gift card). The first few bites were good but in the end I was choking it down. Then Sunday I went to BJ's ~ they have the greatest fries ever!!! I ate but it wasn't that enjoyable and I felt like crap when I went to bed Sunday night. I call this P R O G R E S S people!!! I was so happy to wake up on Monday and go back to my strict, no-variety eating plan. And the pounds are coming off, which makes it all worth it.
My closet is getting fewer and fewer options in it. I know what's going to be on my Christmas list.
And, hopefully by Monday morning my body will be in "Onederland". Yep, I just admitted it ~ can't believe I did but the truth is the truth!

Not Much Happening?

I guess there's not a whole lot going on since it's been a loooong time since my last post.

• School is school . . . .still feels like 3 bazillion kiddoes on some days (like today) but I can see so much progress in some of them. However, we aren't making much progress with "inside voices" ~ I don't know that we will since even if they are all "reading" a book to themselves it is quite loud!
• My niece is playing volleyball for Verrado High School, both Frosh and JV teams. The Frosh team is 8-0 today!! She is really good. :-)
• Thinking about the possibility of changing to a charter school. Need to look into it further, but my niece and nephew go to Odyssey and there is a lot of good happening there. It just seems that in the public schools we are getting more and more thrown at us, while getting less support and $$. I'll keep you posted.
• Going back on the HCG protocol this Saturday, which means that I get 2 "binge" days. Sad thing is, I have a much smaller appetite and can't think of what I want to stuff myself with. I guess that's actually a GOOD thing. Who'd have thought that I would prefer cottage cheese and strawberries to a brownie?!?!
• Still wishing/hoping/praying for that special someone. I got my hopes up for a while at the beginning of the summer, but apparently that wasn't meant to develop into anything more. Really, my list of what I'm looking for isn't that great, just a nice, normal guy who likes me and wants to spend time with me . . .